Most people have issues and or "Problems", dealing with ones self, whether emotionally or morally.
When said issues are pointed out, some choose to ignore the pointing fingers, and live in denial.
Others might agree to having issues, and hence forth work on fixing them in order to become a "better human being".

But i have never been interested in being a better human being, or person. I have issues and do not ignore nor deny their existence, rather, i embrace them. I choose not to fix these issues because these issues make me who i am.

I dont want to be perfect. I want to be imperfect.

Imperfect is Perfect to me.

If i was perfect i would be God. And if i were God i would be bored, and if i were bored i would hate myself. And if i hated myself i would want to create a whole planet infested with little imperfect versions of me so that i may pit them against each other, and change around rules and environments to catch them off guard and put them in ironic and dramatic situations and make them hate each other and hate them selves, just to make my self feel better. I would watch them get up and fall, and kill and sleep, and hate, and fall in love, and die.

And that is why i do not want to be God.